So why am I having such a hard time with this? This morning I had the meeting that I've been waiting for. The job is mine. It will allow me to have some flexibility, some creativity, work with awesome people, use my strengths, and get out from under the thumb of a man who has caused me stress for the last five years. The kicker is that I take not a $3,000 pay cut like I thought but a $6,000 pay cut (I just did the math). Yikes. I already took a $6,000 pay cut earlier this year at THIS job. This is incredibly humbling. Not only is this hurting my pocketbook but my pride too. I have to get over that part. The pocketbook is the important part. I need to be able to pay my bills. I just feel like I'm moving backwards. How the hell are we ever supposed to get ahead if I keep taking pay cuts? But am I supposed to stay in a job that I hate because the pay is somewhat decent (not awesome, but decent)?
Ugh...ugh...ugh...
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I'm sorry to hear that you are loosing so much in pay! I guess you have to sit down and figure out if paying the bills will still work out for you. Maybe there is a way that you can work things out, and also have less stress on your job as well. Can you cut back anywhere that will help? What are the things that makes this job better for you? Will you have more time off? Does it pay for education (perhaps you could go back to school after all)? Sometimes if you can swing it financially a job change can be worth more than the money you are loosing. Are there things that you can negatiate that will make the money cut worthwhile? What do you feel in your gut (heart) about this change? Does it feel right?
oceans, there are lots of positive things about this job - the negative is the pay. Mike reminded me that we've made on less before. He also reminded me that when he was debating whether or not to stay at his last job where he wasn't happy but it was a college and the kids would go to school for free, I asked him if he could stand staying there for the 7-10 years that it would take for them to graduate. It's not worth staying in a job that you're unhappy in just for the money. He asked me if I could see myself staying in this job for another 5 years. No, I definitely can't. This other job has so much to offer. We'll just need to cut back a bit. Then again, with us moving into my dad's house soon, the rent will probably be less and maybe it won't be so bad after all.
What is my gut telling me? It was telling me to take the job. Now I'm not sure - There's something that's holding me back but I'm trying to listen clearly and tell if it's just money that's getting in the way, or if it's something else.
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