I'm still having a hard time getting used to journaling at LCT and blogging over here, but I like having both. Having this place allows me to be a little freer and a little deeper with my thoughts, even though I might not update it as consistently.
As I wrote over there, I got a clear sign today about my decision regarding the new job. I was waffling - trying to distinguish what it was that my gut was telling me. I couldn't hear it because the money was getting in the way. This morning I did what I haven't done in a long time - I asked for a sign - something that I wouldn't miss. We were so busy today - it was my day on the front desk - we had check out after check out, the phone wouldn't stop ringing, reservations galore, maintenance calls, etc...it was just non-stop. In the midst of all this P comes in and asks me to make her a dinner reservation for tonight. I couldn't believe it. Now, P is the most thoughtful, caring, wonderful person I have ever known, but every now and then she does something like this that makes my jaw drop and I just go "huh?" I shake my head in disbelief but I say "sure, no problem" with a smile. What I'm really thinking is "why can't you pick up the phone and do it yourself?". Then I had to call her and tell her that the restaurant couldn't take her at the time she wanted. She said she'd call her friend and CALL ME BACK. She did to tell me she'd made other arrangements at another restaurant - but I still had to call and cancel the first reservation that I'd made for the only time that they could take her.
This told me two things: That I have to leave this job, and that moving into my father's house is the right thing to do too. It will break all ties. P and I can still be friends and friends only, and I can start new with work.
Funny how things work out when you look.
I also stopped at the bank on my way home. The lady that I always see at the drive-through window who is SO nice and always remembers my name wasn't there. Then she ran up to the window from somewhere else in the bank to say hi - she said that she hasn't been there much. She just found out that she has breast cancer so she's had to take some time off. I gave her hugs through the window and wished her the best of luck.
Life is too short. Screw the money. I'm taking this job.
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I know what you mean about being freer to express yourself in the blog as opposed to the other place. It took me a while to feel comfortable having two journals, but blogging gives me a place to go deeper and leave the low-carb stuff at the low-carb place. :)
I've been looking for signs about my career, too. Its good that you are listening to your gut. You are making a good decision and peace of mind is worth much more than the $$ in your bank account. {{{Hugs}}}
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